Changing Events

                 

              If I could change one thing that has happened to me in the past, it would be from back when I went to Amherst.  When I was in school there, people treated me like I was worthless.  They were rude, insensitive, and even smug about the way they treated me.  I was bullied constantly throughout middle school; in the hallways, classrooms, and even outside the school on the way home.   Those people would call me faggot, useless, and tell me that I would never be successful in life.  They said I would never find love because I was a freak.  I started to believe it after a while, the same way you learn to ride a bike.  If it you do it enough, you do not have to think about it anymore.  It just comes naturally.  This brings me to the way I acted towards them.  I was super nice; thinking that if I showed them I was a good person, maybe they would like me better, that maybe I would actually have some friends.  If I could change one thing, I would change the way I acted.  I would not sit around and let them torment me.  It is my own fault that it happened. I could have stood up for myself, but I did not.  So, I would have told them that they needed to stop and that what they were saying was not only rude, but wrong.  I learned that I need to stand up for myself because nobody else will.